It’s summertime, but that hasn’t always meant the living is easy.
For years, rising temperatures meant even more thoughts of body insecurity.
With so much skin on display, I couldn’t help but compare myself to others. Inevitably, I found something to be unsatisfied with.
However, this past year has been revolutionary for me. I confronted many fears that previously plagued me. As a result, I’ve become stronger and more confident.
Although I knew how far I’d come, I couldn’t help but be anxious about the start of bikini season.
In Germany, I was able to mostly evade the issue: Cool temperatures made my wardrobe more dresses and cardigans than swimsuits and short-shorts.
Since getting back to the states, however, temperatures have been hitting more than 100 degrees nearly every day. Fear of heat stroke, brought me face-to-face with my old fears.
So far, I dealt well with situations that would have previously upset me.
But, the real test came yesterday, when I went to Oceans of Fun.
The day started off when my boy came over for breakfast.
After fueling up, we met up with Rebecca and her boyfriend to drive to Kansas City.
Upon arriving at the park, the sun was shining, there wasn’t a cloud in sight and the lines were moderately short. It was all the makings of a good time.
The only obstacle was stripping my cover-up.
With contained hesitation, I peeled off my dress, put it in a locker and turned around to face a crowd of thousands of people.
“Will they notice my fill-on-the-blank flaw?” I wondered…
But, there was no time to dwell in concern, as we made a beeline for the cool water.
From that point out, I spent the rest of the day having fun. In a swimsuit. In public.
I realized, among the crowd, I was just one of many.
Some girls probably had better fill-in-the-blank than me, but that wasn’t the point. The real goal was to have a good time. To achieve that, it didn’t matter how thin my thighs were or how flat my stomach was.
I left the park feeling more confident in myself and more fulfilled in the journey I’ve taken. It all made me realize that…
It may not be perfect, but every part of my body serves a purpose. I have strength. I have energy. I have beauty, if I believe I do.
Before relaxing too much, I first had to refuel that strong, energized body of mine.
Consumed: Apricot-ginger tofu, prepared by cubing and pressing tofu, marinating it in apricot-ginger sauce and baking in 400 degree oven for 20 minutes (stirring up after 10 minutes). Also consumed were sweet potato oven-fries, balsamic sautéed green beans and honey mustard.
Since we were just so darn active during the day, I also whipped up an impromptu batch of guacamole to share with the boy.
I’d watched my mom make guacamole many times. But, I’d never actually made it before. I threw together what I had, and hoped my taste-tester would approve.
It may not be beautiful, but it sure was delicious!
- 1 ripe avocado
- 1/4 C finely diced onion
- Zest of one lime
- Approximately 2 T fresh lime juice
- 1 T chopped cilantro
- 1/4 C salsa
- 1/4 t cumin
- Mash everything together and then eat, preferably with chips (or a spoon).
Finally ready to vacate the kitchen, I spent the rest of the night happy with my boy, happy with my body and happy with my wonderful life.
Temperatures were still hovering above 90 degrees. But, the fact that I was more worried about the cooling bill than body insecurity was a success I’m glad to deal with.
Question: What are you grateful that your body can do?
My body propels me to run and gives me the energy to be active.